Exam Week
Posted: February 15, 2012 Filed under: Life, Randomness, school Leave a comment »Hey everyone! So, it’s exam week over at my little bubble of science & mathery and I’m done with Chemistry! Woot woot! *hands up in the air like I just don’t care* A Computer Science final project also down, so 3 more exams to go. American Studies, Precalculus (which is incidentally much harder that Calculus), and Japanese. Precalculus isn’t really an intro to Calculus. It’s where all of the random math subject matter gets thrown in. I studied pretty intensely for Chemistry and I’m glad it was my first exam because I got to get the most challenging subject out of the way. Today was also Valentine’s Day. The best part of it was all of the candy, baked goods and food that was thrown around <3. *insert sigh about highschool boys*
So, how have I been doing lately? how have I been?
I don’t even know what to say. This school has been the most intense experience I have ever taken under my wing. I practically live in a bubble. There’s this culture here that you can’t really find anywhere else which is why it’s difficult to explain to people. There aren’t any methods of comparison. Whenever I go out to the “real world”, it feels so weird. That there are these other living breathing people who aren’t enrolled in my classes, who have very different lives of their own. When you try to explain things about the school you make so many references to SSM specific things that you have to stop and explain the little parts. I almost forget that the world isn’t made up of very weird, interesting, hardworking, and good looking teenagers.
The best thing about the school is definitely the abundant amount of opportunities. Relationships, classes, language seminars, clubs, etc. It’s interesting to see what you end up manifesting in the school.
So yeah, I just felt like writing a random update. Maybe I’ll do it more often. maybe.
Haunted Farm
Posted: October 22, 2011 Filed under: Life, school Leave a comment »I can’t even begin to describe how this school has changed me. It’s a bit of a push/pull relationship. Sometimes i love it, other times not so much. There have been moments where I’ve seriously considered leaving but I don’t think I’d actually go through with it. Tonight, I went to a haunted farm complete with a corn maze, tractor, and haunted house. It was nice. It was nice getting off campus, seeing real, live people. That sounds weird but all of my friends could oddly agree to the sentiment. We live in zombie-town, land of the sleep deprived. When students leave campus, it’s referred to as “popping the bubble” because, we effectively live in bubble.
Not that I paid much attention to the news before, but I hear even less about the world now. Sometimes it’s easy to forget that the world doesn’t consist of 4 large buildings, teenagers, and a few supervising adults because that’s all I see on a daily basis. There are people who don’t understand the school/campus/teacher oriented references or use the fad words. So, yes it was nice hitting up the haunted farm full of their local middle school kids. Breaking routine. We all made an agreement not to talk about schoolwork while we were there.
Pokemon
A couple of days ago I dressed up as Pikachu, and ran around the school during happy half while my friend was dressed as Ash, throwing pokeballs at me. There was also the theme song playing in the background. I kept my hood on the whole time so I couldn’t see, but apparently there was a crowd of people chasing me at some point. People kept grabbing me and I’d run into some random dude’s arms because they were trying to catch me.
Ahhh, now it’s the weekend. I’ll study, relax, and grab some chai tea off campus with my friends later. How are you guys doing? I hope you’re having a fabulous weekend!
School: Life at Math and Science
Posted: October 2, 2011 Filed under: Life, school Leave a comment »General Life Update
I’ve been having a lot of fun at my new school. It really is a very different experience living with your best friends. I go outside of my hallway and there are all of my classmates, just chillin’. At the same time, I’m working on completely eliminating, or at least lowering, my stress levels. The courses are rigorous and really require you to think and study. At my old school I barely ever studied and got straight A’s. Different story at SSM.
My Favorite Class
Japanese. Because I can just make up creative/weird stories in my head all day and it counts as work or something.
Example: The adjective dangerous in Japanese is ‘abunai.’
I picture Aladdin and Abu during the night in the sandy and egyptian-esque background. Abu running to go into a pyramid while Aladdin shouts “Abu! Abu! It’s dangerous at night!”
Plus, I’m interested in moving to Japan one day so that helps. At first I was failing the class, hardcore. I probably had a like a 7%. Suwa sensei, my teacher, teaches the class in entirely japanese. Eh, me no comphrende. So, erm, that means I didn’t understand directions and I didn’t know when there were tests. Err, what was homework again? After a couple of weeks I got over the learning curve, caught up with the class, and learned the common phrases and vocabulary my teacher uses. Now, I’m doing really well in the course. The grade is an ‘A’ though I feel like Japanese is a living, breathing thing, not something to grade. Who cares if you ace a language course if you can’t actually apply it? Someone may be able to conjugate verbs on paper but forget what they’ve learned and sound like an unnatural robot in front of a native speaker. But I think most of my classmates don’t plan on applying it anyway…
Dorms
Unlike some halls, mine is super close. I love everybody on greynolds. I visited my old highschool yesterday and it didn’t evoke a good emotional response. I kinda just started thinking about all of the people and somewhat traumatizing memories there. I also realized that I didn’t joke around nearly as much as I do at my new school. There are many less social inhibitions at my new school so I’m perpetually acting like a spazz. And the great thing is, people join me there! And accept me. I just got weird looks at my old highschool. It’s wonderful being a part of a close knit community.
Food
I’m much less picky about what I eat, now that I live in a dormitory. But, I do generally eat as healthily as I can. I snack and eat conventional junky foods when I bum off of my friends. We all share food on my hall. I’m the type of student who eats organic ramen with kimchi and seaweed… I also eat a lot of fruit if I’ve stocked up. For lunch and dinner I’ll usually go to the PFM (cafeteria). Their food is usually a hit or a miss, it’s not too bad, especially for free food.
Skin
About a month in I realized that the lack of sleep and stress was really taking a toll on my skin. At home I could get away with just splashing my face with lukewarm water in the morning. I ordered an organic facial scrub and moisturizer. I also make sure to cleanse my face with a towel and hot water in the morning to get off any oil and dirt that accumulated during the night. Just adding these couple of things made a huge difference.
Time
It’s very valuable. My days can sometimes be filled to the brim with activities and homework. In my free time I often take naps, or release. My school is also known as zombieland because of how little people sleep there. I’ve heard that some people regularly pull all nighters… icky. I haven’t done that yet… I’ve already had trouble keeping up and I have easy schedule if you were compare mine to a genius senior’s. They always go easy on juniors during the first trimester… Oh, and yes, my school goes by trimesters, not semesters. Just another way for us to complete more intense work in a shorter time period.
But I also feel like the school expects us to stay up really late and doesn’t make it any easier for us to go to sleep earlier. You can’t sleep any earlier than 10:30 pm unless you go to the lobby and sign early check. Check is when students sign a sheet on hall to basically tell the school hey I’m here.
Only 1/3 of applicants get in… I know some former classmates of mine who were really crushed when they weren’t accepted. I’ve read accounts of hopefuls who list all of their accomplishments and ask people what their chances are of getting in. The school is not all butterflies, rainbows, and unicorns as it may seem. People drop out at the beginning and throughout the year because they don’t feel it’s for them. Sometimes students are downright miserable from the workload. The school also does expel a good number of students… in my opinion, sometimes unfairly.
All in all, I’m glad I’ve had this opportunity and I love my friends. The adults aren’t watching us like hawks and I have a lot of fun adventures.
Oh yeah, and radical turtle will look the same for a while actually..
Regenerate
Posted: September 23, 2011 Filed under: Life, Randomness, school Leave a comment »I’m moving. On the web-asphere, that is. When you go onto radicalturtle.com in a couple of days it’ll look a bit different.
Changes
I no longer have the time nor the energy to churn out blog posts… Okay, the time-thing is an excuse, it always is. What I mean is, radicalturtle is no longer one of my top priorities… I’m trying to balance the three S’s of SSM (school of science and math).
- Sleeping
- Socializing
- Studying
So, my posts will be much more casual, maybe just a musing from the day, or whatever I feel like. I might start writing about different aspects about the school, my day, my grades, whatevs you know.
School
I got my grades back yesterday… Somehow, I don’t care about numbers as much as I used to. It’s probably because barely anyone in this school actually gets straight A’s even when we did in our home highschool. This school doesn’t rank students, or have a valedictorian either.
Somewhere along the line I forgot that education is actually supposed to educate and teach us. We can make connections between subjects to better understand the world as a whole. If you’re just cramming, not enjoying yourself, and doing everything for the sake of grades, when you look back, what was the point?
Boarding School: Down and Dirty Recap
Posted: September 16, 2011 Filed under: Life, school Leave a comment »Here’s a brief recap of my time spent at my new school thus far. Enjoy ~
Week 1:
It’s time to PARRRTAYYY!
Then, classes start.
What the hell are people saying? Where is everything?
Our school has a special language of TLAs – three letter acronyms. It’s not a cafeteria, no, it’s the PFM (professional food management). Let’s go down to the PEC (physical education center).
Argh argh argh I’m so lost. Argh argh argh, I slept through a class. Hur hur hur (cry-i noises) so many classes at so many different times everyday. HOW DO I DISPENSE SOAP?
Dawwww, thank you senior brother for the gift.

Fun Fact: My school was an abandoned hospital. What does that mean? The school is built a little oddly and we have lots of spooky ghost stories. Plus, I live in the morgue. The most infamous of the ghost stories? A nurse went through the underground Hill tunnel and was never seen again. Apparently, you can still hear her heels clicking at night. It was featured on some ghost stories type tv show.
Week 2:
EARTHQUAKE
Then FIRE – (lol, my roommate set a toaster oven on fire in the mini kitchen of a hall above us. we were all chillin, just making omelets…)
HURRICANNNE
All the teachers are actually giving us work now… Bonding with my hallmates. Man, I love my hallmates.
Fun Fact: Every Sunday – Thursday night we have “Happy Half.” A good chunk of students congregate in the middle of the school, near the swings (which 2 of my hallmates got it to stop squeaking! so appreciative) to talk and have fun from 10 pm- 10:25 pm. At 10:30 we have ‘check’ where we have to be on hall and sign in.
Week 3:
TORNADO
MORE SCHOOL WORK
I turn my bed, a bottom bunk, into a cozy enclave since my roommate stays up studying. Man, I so… tired… Look! I have free time. Must take…. a nap…. zzz….
I have no food left! I must rely on the PFM for my nutritional needs.
Extended weekend – time to visit home! Eh, I sleep and do practically nothing with my time. I buy lots of food too.
Fun Fact: My school mascot is a unicorn.
Week 4:
Picture day! More hall activities. More fun with all of my friends. More work. More Chemistry, Intermediate Japanese, American Studies, and Precalculus. College Eve, wherein I sign up for the airforce with a ‘pen name’ for a snowcone. My senior convinces me to leave campus without signing out.
Fun Fact: My school is composed of only juniors and seniors. That means that each class only knows each other for one year. This makes it harder to keep up certain SSM culture/clubs and make long term changes.
Me, a junior, would call someone who has just graduated the past school year a “grand senior.” The “grand senior” was my senior’s senior (while they were a junior). Get it? Some who graduated 2 years ago would be a “grand grand senior.” This is how we refer to past generations.
Junior (me) –> Senior –> Grand Senior –> Grand Grand Senior –> etc…
Week 5 (current):
I go on a carb free diet with 3 of my hallmates. I feel much cleaner and lighter. Good BMs. There’s a cookout tonight! for my building. Not to mention, it’s friday friday gotta get down on friday….
Fun Fact: People would think my school is entirely comprised of nerds, which it is to an extent, but our school also excels in athletics. The boys soccer team is went to Nationals last year. The girls tennis team wins state championship.
Also, the people here are kind with interesting back stories. Scattered among us are some superstar geniuses.
The school is somewhat like a college yet retains some odd highschool-y points since we’re still minors. I live on a closed campus so to get into any building in the school I have to have a fob. It’s a plastic thingy majiger that you have to swipe to open doors. We call it a fob, but no, it doesn’t mean FOB. I received a plain, navy blue fob without a design from a previous student so I painted it with nail polish. If it already has a design, you just paint over it. I wear my fob as a necklace.

Generally, school is very fun and busy. When I smile at people and say hi in the hallway, a warm euphoria spreads on my face and through my chest because I’m genuinely happy to see them =)
Facebook Almost Didn't Happen?: A Mark Zuckerberg Story
Posted: September 8, 2011 Filed under: Life, school, success Leave a comment »“He told me he was planning to move to California to begin a start up. Me, who saw the dot-com crash and burn, advised him not to. He wanted to make something called “Facebook.” What? How did he expect to compete with companies like Friendster, Myspace? How ridiculous. Did he want to give up his path and education in Harvard? Yes, this student was Mark Zuckerburg.”
Convocation
I’m attending a state boarding school and on the first day of classes we have something called “convocation.” An alumni and current Google employee came to give the annual convocation speech. From what I’ve heard, people say this is the best convocation they’ve had so far. It was an incredibly interesting speech filled with humor, insightful words, and relevance.
Deciding between Google or Harvard
Matt, the speaker, graduated from this school about 20 years ago. He went on the college and majored in programming. Google offered him a job in 2002 when they were just another risky search engine company, an area that did not fare well for others. He turned the job down and now reminisces that if he had taken the stocks they had offered him, he’d be flying to an island on a private jet to sip margaritas after the speech. He eventually became a Harvard professor and scored himself a permanent position, meaning they wouldn’t let him go or fire him unless he slept with the wrong student or something (his words). He had a pretty cushy position; teach a few classes in the morning, take home a stable paycheck. His mom was happy.
The position allows professors to go on sabbaticals every five years to explore other interests. He decided to work for Google for a year and then return afterwards. After working with Google, he decided “This is where I want to be. This is what I’m happy doing — coding. Working with people who are smarter than me.” So he decided to quit. Quit Harvard. “This was kinda big deal because they had just given me the position to work at Harvard for life. Why would you leave?”
“As a professor, I was normally the smartest in the room. I realized that to grow you have to surround yourself with people smarter than you. Despite me discouraging Mark from following his dreams, he still did it and look at what has happened today. It’s revolutionized networking and how I communicate with my friends. I’ve reconnected with my fellow alumni from this school.”
The Path to Dreams
Ok, so I realize that I don’t know how much his professor’s words actually discouraged, or possibly encouraged him. I just know that on the path to his dreams, he had someone who told him not to do it. Not to take the risk, to go on his safe and prestigious path. Other people probably told him to do the same thing. He, who now looks so successful and rich, had obstacles to get to where he is today.
What will you do?
*I have paraphrased what I remembered from the speech.
Leslie's Going to Boarding School?!
Posted: April 13, 2011 Filed under: Life, school, success 4 Comments »Over 1,200 students applied. Only 350 got in. MEEE?!
It is basically the best school in…. should I reveal my location to you guys? I know the chances of getting a stalker is low, but still haha. Ok. North Carolina. And one of the best high schools across the US. They had the highest amount of applications than ever this year…. But I’m not going there alone. Three of my other friends will be joining me! So shocked and stoked we all got in! My two female friends and I decided not to request to be roommates because we might end up annoying each other and we don’t want to damage our friendship.
How I got in
Aside from the obvious — getting good grades, taking up extracurriculars, yadda yadda — I also did something quite peculiar to the normal bystandar. I acted if I already got in. I do this for practically everything I want. Look at it like this: What have you got to lose by just feeling like you already have something? I could doubt and struggle but I prefer to feel bliss, like the universe is just giving to me because I decided so.
“So what are you thinking about possibly getting into RSS*?” asked my math teacher. *renamed by me to the acronym ‘Really Smart School’
“The real question is ‘how am I not going to be accepted?’” I replied.
My classmates cracked up. “Well, you’re a cocky little thing aren’t you?”
Every time it was mentioned, I was just like yeah, I’m already in there. But at times I really was apathetic to my status. My friend, C, on the other hand was a bit of a nervous wreck. I wouldn’t even know today is the acceptance/nonacceptance day if it wasn’t for her.
“6 more days….” C said wistfully.
“What are you talking about?”
“Leslie, this is so obvious.”
“It’s obviously not.”
“Until your application status for RSS is revealed,” chimed in the friend who had called me cocky.
“Even she knew that, and she’s not even applying.”
“C, you can’t expect me to understand these cryptic messages.”
—-
“So are you nervous about getting in or not?” asked my homeroom teacher.
“…Not really, I’m pretty confident.”
—
“When we get in –”
“You mean if we get in.”
“When we get in, let’s go shopping for groceries at Whole Foods together.”
–
Quite honestly, it would’ve been really embarrassing if I didn’t get in because of my arrogant attitude.
The school specializes in math and science but also excels in a host of other subjects. They have large choice and variety in course selections… The athletics are also great.
College Bound?
The funny thing is though… I don’t think I’m going to go to college. I’m not going to the school to prepare to get a scholarship and go to college. I’m purely going for a great experience. To learn, to grow, to push myself beyond my boundaries. I’ll be one of those people who messes up the 99% statistic for college goers. Tomorrow I’m pretending I didn’t get accepted and C is going along with it.
Intelligence?
I’ll be honest, I do think of myself as pretty intelligent but not a genius… and it seems like it’s a school bred for the highest caliber of geniuses. Whew, that robotics program! I’m lazy and do my homework during school. At RSS? No, I’m stepping up my game. I still work on the Learning on Steroids tactics and to prepare myself, I’m mastering a couple of techniques during the rest of this school year.
Why did I apply?
I’ve thought about it since the 7th grade but mostly just applied because it was expected of me. Like fish gills and water, I was just expected to jam. I’m also dissatisfied with my county and school in general… why not?
It’s known here on radicalturtle that I don’t like most aspects of the school system. I still don’t, but I think time at RSS will be much more immensely enjoyable. I went to the school last month for some tests and a tour, and it was just oozing with a unique charisma. New friends, a new lifestyle, new adventures!
Homesickness?
I might miss aspects of home like a queen sized bed and my own room. Sometimes my parents. I’ve been pretty independent since I was young so this probably won’t be an issue.
How much does it cost?
Free. Boarding, food, everything. I can literally live a comfortable lifestyle without any money there. It’s one of the few charter/boarding schools completely funded by the state in the country. I will bring money though, mostly for food. The one aspect I didn’t like about the school was the cafeteria. It’s better than the average highschool, but still subpar. How can you expect to run amazing young innovative minds on that riffraff? Neh, I’ll be preparing my own food and storing it in the huge refrigerator at the end of every dorm hallway. I also expect to fast a couple days of the week to just cut down on hassle and time.
I’ll definitely do a video tour of the amazing school in August and tell you guys about my new life there. I’m not sure how much time I’ll have to dedicate to personal development blogging though
. I expect it to be a profound period of intense growth.
P.S. Asians are 25% of the school’s population. I’m convinced every smart Asian and Indian in the state has applied there.
Is Money the Answer to all of our Problems?
Posted: April 4, 2011 Filed under: EFT, Life, school 3 Comments »The short essay below was written during a movie I was supposed to be paying attention to in my Civics and Economics class.
All of the people were so serious, negative, and grouchy I just didn’t want to pay attention to them.
War is a huge problem! There’s no money! We need more money! Rawrr!
This is the call of my civics and economics teacher. I listen to him brainwash my classmates little by little. We’re watching a movie about how America is in so much debt. Blah blah billions, trillions blah blah. This is all a figment of our imaginations. Everyone is propping up a stick supporting these scenarios. If we all just stopped trying to exaggerate these problems then they would all stop. Simple as that.
We have a war against drugs, tobacco, poverty, other countries… they’ll never be solved. As a collective consciousness we first need to change our thinking about these situations. Will they ever be solved if we constantly think of them as problems? We’re better off focusing on solutions. But the government doesn’t actually want to make progress; showing doom and gloom, always exaggerating stories on TV.
A significant amount of news about Japan is hyped up in foreign media. I think a great way to give to Japan is to tap. EFT tap, that is.
There’s an illusion that if we just have enough mullah, then all of our problems would be solved. But our mindset would just continually make up new problems. Would it even be possible to have a “perfect world” with the way we think?
Link Love: Linky to articles me likey. Yay!! How to End Procrastination Forever by sidawson. Already used it and it really does work! Clear, simple, and concise technique. Thanks Si.
Is Resisting Emotions Causing You Unhappiness?
Posted: March 18, 2011 Filed under: Life, personal development, school 4 Comments »I’ve had issues with racism and bullying in my small little town in the south. When I look back… I can see how much of my thinking caused this trauma.
I had deeply ingrained beliefs on how my ethnicity somehow made me less of a person… The start of the terror came just before starting highschool in driver’s ed class. Two boys taunted me saying “chicken wing!” I know one of them was just doing it to fit in with his friend and I saw how he genuinely felt bad afterwards…
Note: I am not saying bullied people are at fault. I know people all up into the Law of Attraction may say this for illnesses, rape, etc. but the blame game could just end up in depression. We are all on unique and magical journeys towards our own realizations and experiences.
Much of my internal conflict manifested outwards and as people bullied me more, the worse it got. Thankfully, I now feel much more at peace with myself. I thought it was over it at the beginning of 10th grade but if I had really looked at the emotional sign posts then I would’ve realize that, oh no, it wasn’t (delusionnns). A boy in my music theory class played an oriental tune on the keyboard everyday as I entered the classroom *laughs*. I felt I was being singled out and I resisted the ‘negative’ emotions arising within me. Eventually I had a breakdown after someone bowed to me, cracking an Asian joke.
Like a BREAKDOWN of tears streaming down my face with 4 boys watching me, not knowing what to do or say. They listened to my story and consoled me. The boy who bowed didn’t actually mean anything by it but felt terrible. They all hugged me afterwards. Tangent: one of the boys later fell in love with me later that semester hohohoho….
Today, i can honestly say that I am comfortable and 95.3% (I’m a mathematical genius) healed from the traumatic events. My friends and math teacher frequently crack jokes about my asianess as do I. This morning Mrs. K did so. I began resisting what I felt when she did. I gulped it down but resisting feelings is like trying to keep ice from bobbing up in water. I kept trying to rationalize with myself, “She was just joking and I know that, I needn’t feel bad about it….” Wait a second. What am I scared of? What is the worst that could possibly happen from feeling my emotions? I’ll put out a “negative vibration”? Whatevs, I can deal with whatever comes my way. So I just felt the feeling. It lasted 5 or so seconds and I wouldn’t say it was even “bad”. Then, it was over. Bam shabam, done. Embracing all kinds of emotions such as sadness and anger are just as important as embracing happiness. Resistance feels worse than the emotions themselves.
It’s so amazing to look at “bad” experiences as catalysts and opportunities for growth. I may wish “gosh, they shouldn’t have done/said that” but who am I to dictate what they should/shouldn’t do? We can just see it for what it really is. Pure, undiluted, and simple.
New Thoughts, Fun Update
Posted: October 18, 2010 Filed under: Experiment, Life, Money, Randomness, school 6 Comments »Hi everyone! I hope you all have been having a lovely time these last few weeks.
Things have been quiet over here because like Reggie, I haven’t felt anything of value to say and I’d rather not post for the sake of posting. I’ve decided this is the direction I will take my blog. I’d rather have interesting and meaningful content to both you and me. Neh to fillers and fluff, unless that comes in the form of a cute K-drama *cough Playful Kiss cough*.
I’m also a bit overloaded with schoolwork, experiences, and processing life but I don’t blame time. I don’t think that’s a veritable excuse, ya just gotta prioritize sistah!
Over the last few days, I’ve started reading “Money and the Law of Attraction” by Jerry and Esther Hicks. It has made me realize and pay attention to all of the incoming thoughts and feelings I have. Many are old thought patterns ingrained into my psyche. They’re creeping spiders injecting you with small doses of venom everyday.
Instead of keeping them there, I’ve been working to slowly and gently, the most important thing, replace them with new positive thought patterns and feelings. The key is gently. Take note of how you’re feeling and listen to your inner guidance on whether or not you’re just suppressing how you really feel or genuinely inviting a newer positive feeling into your existence. On the day the book arrived, I found a dollar bill thinly coated with sand on the ground in the dark tumults of a crowd. I thought that was worth noting. I also read a review where a man found a $20 bill the day the book arrived.
Thanks to my good friend and mentor, Kenton, I’ve decided to use school as a sort of training ground. There really are such interesting and strange examples of human nature.
Schoolwork:
I’ve already read Learn More and Study Less (pretty fantastic book on holistically learning) but have not yet implemented many of the tactics. Also, my thoughts and feelings towards schoolwork may be keeping me from grasping concepts as quickly as I could. I’ll be experimenting with this in the coming weeks.
For anyone interested in what I’ve been up to:
-I watched “Oklahoma!” with my friends on a weekend field trip. It was good! *two thumbs up*
-I went to my first homecoming and football game. Our team won 48-14. I still have no idea how football works though.
-I went to the local Oyster Festival for the first time. Yummy food!
-I finished up playing tennis as #3 on the team. Woot! Woot!
-Found out one of my best friends choose to write about me as his favorite person for his journal in English class =D.


