Internal Healing Changes the World

All of my life I’ve been largely independent and unconventional. Now I find that at my teenage years, my desire for freedom is the greatest it’s ever been. All of these traits have started to conflict with what society and others want for me. It can be tough but I always try to redirect my sight, look forward, and keeping doing what I’m doing. People loathe when others are fake or their speech and actions are smothered in the longing for acceptance. People do that because that’s what they’ve been taught to do their whole lives. Everything from clothes, food, grades, jobs, to our small day to day choices.

We aren’t used to being completely honest. At least in the way kids are. We’ve been taught to deceive and wear masks to cover all of the imperfections. Many people walk around like buildings of stone bricks where they only exhibit the acceptable emotions to the acceptable circumstances. It bothers me. We live in a largely disconnected society. Everyone is walking around attached to their cell phones and we flaunt our abundance of wealth in the form of possessions. How good do we really have it though? It all seems like a false facade of grandeur to me. Most people can’t even afford all of the things that they buy.

Despite external circumstances, I’ve been working slowly with myself internally. That means healing unfinished feelings, small complexes, and dark emotions. I can use a combination of techniques or simply sit with the feeling. Somehow, someway, I know how to heal it.

When I think back on it, I really have come a long way. I just don’t realize it most of the time. We have a tendency to think more of our shortcomings than the amazing accomplishments we’ve already achieved. It’s time to give more credit where it’s due. I’ve been able to move mountains for myself and others. Slowly, all of these thought patterns are changing for the better. I used to think lowly of myself and my circumstances. Right now I’m unlocking that resistance and letting all of the good things spill out. In transformation of yourself, you are more able to effectively reach others. When your friends, family, and acquaintances can see the liberation in you from your thoughts and actions, you show the path for everyone else and Change the World.

Day by day You have that Power.

Stop Being Medicore. Right now.

We can find ourselves coasting along life, doubting ourselves here and there, being mediocre. What I realized the other day is Fuck it. Just do whatever you want to do* and allow yourself to be you. What is the point of insecurity or fear anyway? Nothing really. Be who you are and go after what you want. If you feel insecure, just let yourself ease into the feeling and figure out why. It usually stems from wanting acceptance or control. Then, simply let it go. When you realize that you are an awesomely amazing person great things start to happen.

Minimalism gets a hell lot easier

You don’t cling to your stuff for validation of your sense of worth. You look at something and go “No, I really don’t need that. Chuck it.” I’ve listed 18 items on ebay and counting. My parents absolutely love getting money for all of this useless stuff they’ve collected over the years.

Go After Your dreams, No Regrets

Just do it. It’s not as hard as you make it out to be. I’ve been nervous about writing on this website and then I looked into it more deeply realizing that I was scared of failure, scared I wasn’t good enough. “What if I can’t be successful as those uber successful guys who win at life on the interwebz? What if there is seriously just something about me that simply can’t do it, not competent enough?” Some articles are going to suck, I’m new, it’s inevitable but it’s important to treat them as learning experiences. If I fail, I fail. Then, just keep going on. Truth is, I don’t like my website name (radicalturtle currently) and I want to change it, that’s why I’ve been avoiding writing on here. But if I’m going to let something as silly as a website name get in the way of my growth and writing, just screw that.

No limits. Just Like Bruce Lee.

Click on the picture if it’s hard to read. Hardcore man.

I now realize that Bruce Lee was a total badass and one of the most intense people who ever lived. I went barefoot running yesterday. When you first start out, it hurts. Your feet have to develop that tough outer coating that came so naturally to our primal ancestors unlike the common softies lathered in lotion and pampered in shoes all day. Here is a picture of my foot.

It doesn’t look too bad but the ball is reaally blistering right now,  a huge section of skin will detach soon. There is a slight bruise in the middle from stepping on a rock. Running on hot surfaces gives you bad blisters.

Societal rules deem barefoot running as a weird thing so you’ll get looks from strangers. But it’s okay, just ignore them.

I got up this morning, dead tired from getting to sleep at 5 am and just wanted to stay home from the bi-weekly tennis lesson. Then I thought about the Bruce Lee quote. Leslie, just get your ass out of bed and go. I stepped onto the ground and realized damn, my feet are blistered! But oh well, I went out and played anyway. It was hella fun. Joking ensured between me and two other highschool guys also in the group tennis lesson. It didn’t even hurt that much with the band aids, fancy padded tennis socks, and tennis shoes. If I hadn’t gone out and experienced life, I would have just been sitting in my room, refreshing and checking websites.

You are rich.

If you’re reading this on a computer right now, you’re rich. No if, ands, buts about it. Think about it for a sec. Most of us have lived with so much all of our lives; we take for granted how much we really have. This may sound like a lie, but you have everything inside yourself right now to make a fortune. When you feel like you have enough and truly appreciate it, it becomes easier to manifest even more money into your life.

Life is Right out there for the Taking

Dude, look at all of the boundless, abundant opportunities out there. See them? You don’t even have to squint. Living with passion becomes a lot easier. In fact, I’d say it’s a lot easier to be alive and vibrant, your natural state, than suppressed and dull.

Don’t wait. Do it now. Don’t wait for “the right time.”  Don’t wait for someone to solve your problems, someone to accept who you are. You are your own hero, savior, special loving person, creator of amazing things.

*Unless that includes robbing banks and giving people paper cuts. You know what I mean.

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